Where My Joy Comes From

So lately, I've been learning to carry things in my spirit and not in my soul...because Lord knows once any burden (good or bad) makes it to my soul...my emotions are out of CONTROL. This hasn't been easy but with Christ all things are possible and I've learned to rely on who God is in my life. Learning about the mysteries of Him has been my heart's cry as of recent.

Now, many many many have wondered where my joy comes from. I'm naturally a joyful person and the answer results in Jesus, MOST DEFINITELY. However, every so often I find myself down and out (usually when I've let things rest in my soul, not my spirit) and there...my emotions and mind are gone. Thankfully, the Holy Spirit tugs on my heart just enough to keep me from suffocating in my own stinkin' thinkin'...and LATELY, He has pulled me back to a place of thanksgiving.

So here is a chronological effort of where my joy comes from...

Dec. 4th, 1986 - Born with the umbilical chord wrapped around my neck and struggled to see the light of day. Finally, when I began moving, the doctor dropped me but my earthly father caught me. My Heavenly Father catching me would be an ongoing theme throughout my life.
This is where my joy comes from.

1990-1997 - Exposed to images and actions that would cause most to become involved in a lifestyle of promiscuity and/or homosexuality. Harbored hope of growing up to be like my real-life role-models and explicit female rappers but never got a chance to act out on it the way I "should have." Today, I'm not a born-again virgin but a real one, by the grace of God and any dark alley I've walked into, I exited almost unscathed and unblemished compared to most. Once again by the grace of God.
This is where my joy comes from.

Oct. 3rd, 1999 - Saved by the Almighty hand of God at the age of 12, right before I planned to "act out" on all I had been poisoned with as a child. Summer of '99 moved to the outskirts of the city like Moses in the wilderness. Saved by God and from many possible life-changing events.
This is where my joy comes from.

2000-2004 - The outpouring of wisdom from the lives of so many God-ordained people helped break chains, generational curses and began to uproot areas of my life many leave untouched. When many friends were pregnant or with a child or two, locked up, on drugs or plain dysfunctional...God chose to protect me from it all.
This is where my joy comes from.

Late 2004-Late 2005 - The things I did dabble in, even a little bit...God chose to expose, uproot and fill with His blood. PRAISE GOD!! This would mark the beginning of what I like to call "The Great Uprooting & Healing" chapter of my life story that God continues to write. Here is where the true uprooting began...and He chose to show me because He loves me.
This is where my joy comes from.

January '06-July '06 - "The Great Healing" BEGINS as I learn who I REALLY am in Christ and begin truly breaking generational curse after curse after curse. In this season I learn was what true repentance, true surrender and true transparency are.
This is where my joy comes from.

August 26th, 2006 - Move to Philadelphia to help plant In The Light Ministries Philly. Here "The Great Transformation" BEGINS where I blossom into a woman of God from a child of God. This would continue until August of 2007. The old things have passed away....
This is where my joy comes from.

Present - I realize I should've, could've, would've but never did because of His protection, unfailing love and mercy!!! Praise GODDDDDDD for the great uprooting, great healing and great transformation; the valleys, mountains, deserts and storms BECAUSE TODAY...presently, I'm still standing and I'll remain standing with hands trained for war. Why??? READ THE TEXT...it's all in scripture...and this people is just a little taste of...

WHERE MY JOY COMES FROM!!!

You're A Threat

Do you know that before even time began He plotted his plans for you from beginning to end...which is why He's known as The Alpha & Omega---The Beginning and The End aka The Author and Finisher of your faith.

Do you know that before a word forms on your tongue via your brain...He knows it. He knows every thought before you even speak it because He is all-knowing aka Omniscient...let's no forget He is present always and pretty powerful at that so that makes Him Omnipresent and Omnipotent.

Did I mention that before even time began He held us in His hand...His word tells us that He knows the plans He has for us...read Jeremiah 29:11 if you don't believe the facts, it's not just a nice worship song...it's scripture too. This isn't hype...it's truth...get a hold of it.

Are you aware that when the Son of God aka Jesus died on the cross and conquered death...we were inherited that power. You know, the power to conquer death itself. Even more mind-blowing is the fact that His word says we'll do even GREATER things then Jesus did on earth. No pressure...but you got that power baby. Read the Gospels and let that soak up in your bones so you're inspired to you know...be Chosen and Set Apart...which you are...be a freak a bit---A JESUS FREAK.

You know you're more then a Conqueror...so not just a conqueror but more then one...imagine the power you have in that. Let me expound on a bit more power you've inherited...The Bible says whatever we loosen on earth, it is loosened in Heaven and whatever we bind here on earth...guess what...you got it...it's loosened up in Heaven. Also, we have the power to trample upon lions cobras, wild cats and serpants...which are one in the same by the way but here's a revelation a Rattle Snake and a Cobra are both snakes but pack a different punch...so let this be a reminder that we'll be stepping on a bunch of snakes in this walk of ours...so wear good shoes...preferably shoes of peace. The whole outfit is pretty amazing when you rock it...Ephesians 6:11-17 is where you can cop that outfit...one size fits all.

Let's change the word power and let's choose authority...sounds more powerful...Grrrr!!! You know you have authority to tell the enemy to go back to where he came from...HELL!!! Live a little...tell him to go there now if you like. Be specific too...he hates that kind of stuff. :o) Yup yup yup you also have authority to command angels into flight and appoint them to protect, guide and fight on your behalf because God has raised us higher then any angelic being which means they're below us but they're pretty great to have around so use them...they're a litle underestimated and underused. Go appoint them now familia!!

Now check this out because you are an anointed one...let me enlighten you that you come with a warning...you're a major threat and because you are in Christ and He is in you...you're Holy. Now because you are holy...demons may tend to manifest when you walk, talk or even just...ARE present. Scared a bit? Don't be...For God has not given us a spirit of FEAR but of love, peace and a sound-mind...aka self-control and boy do we need that.

So in review children of God...all that to say...YOU ARE A THREAT and the DEVIL HATES YOU...he'll do everything in his power to
distract
devour
divide
demolish
diminish
destroy
detour
drown

THE PLANS GOD HAS FOR YOU...read John 10:10 for the warning but read the second part for the PROMISE

WE HAVE LIFE BABY...and IT'S IN ABUNDANCE...which makes me think God has this infatuation with His children that we'll never understand or comprehend...He's kinda addicted and you know what...I like it! I love it! I want more of it!!

So seek Him and you won't be dissapointed...you THREAT you!!!

Always,
Nina Neen

Word Play

In the mood to write...so here's a little word-play

Reckless abandonment
That’s how the world left me
My flesh says I can handle it
Until Christ came to intercept me
Now a day I find myself on my knees
They say you can’t stumble there
My spirit etches out of my ink pen
Slapping pages of my journal without a care
Intensely I’m desiring
The love I’ve so freely acquired when
My tongue said Jesus is Lord
My heart said sin no more
His Spirit said I’m the cure
The Father said alas an opened door
I love it as it pours
Into my cup, the glory
Overflows onto my lap, His stories
Are my love letters and I read them intently
Can’t miss any detail of the letters that he’s sent me
Once was empty
But now I overflow with a good theme
Used to walk hand and hand with a prince
Who plotted out wicked plots and schemes
Had me befriended until I realized how this story ended
Bamboozled with a lie
Only to keep me separated from my prize in the sky
Eternally separated
But that’s not how this child’s life was fated
Created…to worship
So he faded out the blackness
Better yet erased it to avoid monotonous
Patterns that dwell in the very essence of my indwelling
I’m telling
Of the truth that sets free and begins expelling
All things in rebellion, rebelling in
Or with idols that are defiant to the Bible
Which is vital to my Spirit till my flesh is suicidal
I…
Get my trample on with cobras, lions and serpents underneath my vans
Till their convinced I’m walking in His perfect plan
His perfect love casts out fear to the depths of the deepest sea
I’m in Him, He is in me…guess you can call our union a simile