I Died on 76 and Resurrected on 202

Matthew 10:39
Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my
sake will find it.

Have you ever been in such a dark place when every light was lit and
every window in your house was open? I’m talking about feeling
completely beat up yet your body showed no bumps or bruises. You know
the type of feeling when you want to describe the pain but don’t even
know how to trace it. None of this is on the outside but deep on the
inside. I’m not talking about before Christ either.

And you know you only need the faith of the mustard seed but you can
only muster up the faith the size of a grain of salt. You know you
should be battling it with scripture but your mind suddenly turns to
mush and your mouth won’t open. Last you remembered you weren’t mute
and when you looked at scripture before you don’t recall being blind.

Let me tell you, this was me...this was me for different
reasons...reasons that I won’t get into here because I might be here
writing until Jesus cracks the sky but let me tell you this was
me...until I got on route 76 thinking I was going to surprise my niece
but little did I know the Holy Spirit was going to surprise me as He
had me en route to freedom.

In 2007 God made it very clear how he had formed me and he had me in
the cooker marinating me with the tools I needed to use. So in 2008 I
knew I wanted and needed to take my prayer life to the next level,
fasting was a neccesity, getting fat off of the Word of God would be
the only gluttony I could indulge in and simply emptying myself so
that I could make room for more of HIM would be key. I went into 08
hype because here I knew my childish ways had passed away in 07 but
little did I know that there still rested a little residue that I
simply was not content with.
These past few months of 08 I had completely been disenfranchized with
my current state. I found myself putting the tools on the shelf,
taking the bate of Satan (offense) to a whole nother level yet
completely unsatisifed and aware of the things that had to go.

So to make a long story short this past weekend I had had enough.
There was no blatant sin in my life but I don’t know if you realized
how jacked up you are when you simply don’t include God in on
things...and not just the major things but the small details of
life...The scripture that says apart from God I could do nothing
became very clear to me this past weekend. So any hoot, it started on
Wed. when worship just had me in the zone. Then this week and weekend
I found myself wanting to ball my eyes out because I felt grieved in
my spirit. So tonight after church, I got in my car to go to Lancaster
and I finally parted my lips to tell God how I really felt...I let it
all hang out. Felt like I was going to crash a few times due to my
tears blurring my vision but I felt a release.

Now as soon as I started seeing the 202 exit, wanna know what I realized after I asked God when I would feel the
peace....He said, the irony of this all is that you too have died once
and for all and now have been resurrected like my Son did. "All of
that old Nina is finished."

So let me ask you this, what is it that you’re holding onto that needs
to be mirrored by the CROSS...meaning he conquered it already, he
conquered death and IT IS INDEED...FINISHED.

Romans 6:3-10
...don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus
were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him
through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised
from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new
life.
If we have been united with him like this in his death, we will
certainly also be united with him in his resurrection. For we know
that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might
be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin-- because
anyone who has died has been freed from sin.

Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with
him. For we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot
die again; death no longer has mastery over him. The death he died, he
died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God.

God is still opening the eyes of the blind and opening up the mouths of the mute...in the physical but more so in the spiritual...

May this bless all who read it...